1 year ago

Today it's exactly one year ago...it is so worth it to remember...
I remember how pissed off I felt that day...how I had a stressful day with R.How I tried to find a way to escape from R...how my mood reached it's deepest point...it was already the later evening...when D and I took me to Sarinah and Oh lá lá...it was amazing,the first time I saw D(which I just got to know cos of I),I thought:Gosh,why are girls always underestimating themself?It was the only time that evening that I felt insecure...
Somehow,it was funny...I went there to talk with D...she knew it,I knew it...but I ended up chit-chatting with I,cos D was amazingly shy that evening...all the things we'd talked about when I was still back in Germany - puff,like gone!
She was not blushing...but you could feel that she's feeling shy...and I thought:"Wow,a girl can be shy cos of a guy like me?That's really something I didn't expect."
I remember I put my arm around her shoulder to break the ice...and how it seems to make her feel even more uncomfy...gosh,how could a shy guy like me do that anyhow?
We went to the rest rooms later cos I had to pee...and I remember how we were lost in our thoughts and held our hands...how we stopped...looked at each other...our hands...each other...how we stopped holding them cos we were shocked:P
I thought she felt uncomfy with it and maybe she did the same?
We were driving back to Permata...listening to German songs that I used to listen in my lonely times in Germany...I felt so alive that evening...It was the time were I decided to definitely end up with R.
And when it was time to say good bye...I got the warmest and sweetest hug of my life!Gosh,how I wish this hug would have lasted forever!Too bad that I was around so we couldn't kiss each other...we both agreed on what a pity that was when we were back at our place and smsd each other...
And all this is already 1 year ago now?I can't believe it!It seems like it was yesterday!
Gosh,July,July...this month was really so fucking awesome!The best July of my life!The best time of my life!